Did you ever think of that?  I’m sure I’m not unique.  Somebody thought of it long before me. But did you ever dig deeper?  How do you dig??? Lots of ways!  Think, think, think….

Well, I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.  Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to.  You see I’m not a writer, poet, song writer or musician.  I’m nothing special, but I AM and so are YOU and everyone who BELIEVES IN GOD and has been Saved by His Grace.  Whoops, you knew it, right, another religious nut. Nope, wrong again!  I’m probably what most people would consider a failure.  I’m 57 years old been married four times, have no money saved, to speak of, have two beautiful daughters, one of whom doesn’t speak to me.  I work in an industry that is frowned upon.  I’m not good looking, or am I especially smart.  I have made more mistakes than most.  In fact, in some ways, I’m an idiot, and will continue to be.

Do I want your sympathy?  Hell, no!  I’m happier than I’ve ever been.  And I don’t know why, which scares me just a little.  So here goes. I’m going to tell you a few things, most of which you won’t believe anyway, but that’s okay!  You still have a chance as long as you’re breathing….

What does that mean??  Heck if I know.  Did you ever watch a movie that you felt cold chills going through your spine, or cry about dang movie? I have and I’m not ashamed of it. You see, the people who write the songs, movies, books, and create are very special, like those who hit a major league baseball are very special!

Tell me something you don’t know right?  Okay I will.  Pulp Fiction isn’t about drugs, sex, and bad people. It’s about God. Or at least one man’s interpretation of what happens when we die. Think about the movie.  People always asked me why they kept going back and forth.  And, I spent many sleepless nights trying to figure out that part.  Then I watched Mad Dogs the whole first season and I knew.  The bullets didn’t miss them. They died or at least they were dead on this Earth.  Except for Jules. Remember, Travolta got killed by Willis in his apartment.  The last scene should have followed the first. Follow?

So, Jules got it!  He decided to stop being bad, and walk the earth and help people.  Does anyone else come to mind?  Oh, did I say something that made you uneasy?  No not yet for all you smart guys. Okay, let’s talk some more.  What about the movie Ghost?  He’s stuck in limbo until he saves his wife and ascends up to heaven.  Another interpretation, correct?  Ditto!

What else?  What about the movie Tombstone?  Those guys should have been dead.  No one could do that, right?  But we know they did, so how?  Maybe with a little help from above. Si!

You know what pisses me off the most? We see miracles everyday but so many doubt the existence of a Higher Power.  I don’t care what you call it, but you can’t tell me something isn’t out there.  And for that, I’m grateful.

You see, I’m an alcoholic!  A recovering alcoholic and I learned about faith, love, and my God through a bunch of drunks just like me.  Am I ashamed?  Nope!  I want you to tell everyone. I’m not scared…of that or of anything else for that matter. You know, it just might help someone.

Just like the Gideon’s Bible in hotel rooms.  No one would steal a Bible in a hotel.  BUT THEY WANT YOU TO TAKE THEM. THAT’S WHY THEY PUT THEM THERE. Shit, why don’t they put that on the front or something.  Oh, I’m sorry did I offend someone with that dirty word? I know I did, well fuck? You know what I fucking think? You should come down off you high horse and listen. Do you think you’re better than God?  I don’t. But I bet God has heard a few wordy dirds before.  Ya think? In fact, hell, he created them. So ask yourself this?  Is there anything bad that God created?  Oh God didn’t create the bad words; man did?  Who created man?  Round 1 to me.

Round 2

Do you Believe the Bible?  Everyone say yes.   Everyone single word??? Cause I don’t think, myself, it’s up for debate, if you believe in God.  Okay, it says in the Bible that He will return.  Correct, I don’t think he ever left. What makes you think that??  Because! Are you sitting down? And this will make some of you, non-believer’s happy. I believe we are all God, each one of us, if we have been saved. You have the nerve to compare yourself to God? Did he make us in his image?? Are we his children??  Because it makes perfect sense, if you dig a little deeper…ha….

Okay, let’s dig. What happens after you die.? Hell if I know? Pardon the pun.  They put you in the ground or burn you, whoops, don’t like that option.  You’re in the ground, crap, oh shit, or they cut you up and pass you all around.  It doesn’t matter I’m dead, what about this soul thing? Where the heck does it go?  Well, and you progressives will love this one. They get recycled. Roflmao  Heaven?? Hell???  My theory?  I knew you’d ask. It just comes back into your body if you’re saved.  And you get a chance to do better. Everlasting life? Seems I heard about that, somewhere.  Dang good thing!

I’m I starting to get your attention? No, you say?  Hard headed are we?

I know, I was toooooo!! What about sin, doesn’t the Bible say once saved always saved. John 3:15 – 18 “that whoever _n believes in Him should ₁ not perish but _o have eternal life.

And let’s not get denominational, but I do have point to suggest about this verse.  In what book of the Bible is this verse? The book of John? John the Baptist. Wonder why it’s there. Some people can’t see the forest for the damn trees.  Round 2 to me.

It’s that simple.  And I believe in simple. You see God wants you to be happy, because? God wants himself to be happy!  I don’t get it big Dan? Me either. It took me dying. What did you say??? Yep, to be re-born again in my own body and have everyone think I was crazy.  Lose everything that was important to me. Or what I thought was. Once again I was wrong. But God is love!! Unconditional, love, like you have for your children, or like little children have for their parents.

Oh now I know you deep thinkers, you atheists, you tree huggers, you people who say if there’s a God what doesn’t he fix all this shit? I’m going too!  Are these extravagant promises? We think not, they are being fulfilled among us, sometimes quickly sometimes slowly. They will materialize if we work for them.

Where did that come from?  It’s called the Promises.  It’s in the book of Alcoholics Anonymous.  It also says something along the lines of more will be revealed as we go along.  And it is being revealed to me for some reason. And you may not believe that. But I don’t CARE.  Know why?  Cause it may help you, to believe, that I believe. With every fiber of my being that I’m right.  Oh, I know I’m crazy. Yep, won’t even deny it.  Crazy as a run over dog. Sorry about that you animal lovers! But it does happen, and I love dogs.  And dogs love me.

Which brings us to Round 3.

I’m getting a buzz! Are you? Dog, God spelled backwards. What the heck? Who came up with the name of animals.  God?  But I digress.  What I’m saying is we’re all dogs in one form or the other. There’s good dog’s, bad dog’s, little dogs, big dog’s, mad dog’s, smart dog’s, stupid dog’s, men are call dog’s, Snoop dog, Pit Bull, Lassie, Rin Tin Tin, big dog daddy, and last but not least women say all men are dog’s.  Shit they were calling us God all the time.  Point being we have the power to turn any situation into a good thing.  And I love good things.  I love pretty women, pretty things, and pretty cars.  I love everything that is good!  Don’t you??? And there’s a little good and bad in all of us.  So I guess I’m going to just say it…. I love everyone!  Didn’t God do that? So I think I will try that too.  Just in-case there is a God and it ain’t me.  Cause he makes the rules.  Why would he make so many rules?  Nobody can ever do all that stuff and make it to heaven. See that’s the difference between you and I. I KNOW I’m already in Heaven if I try and do good things, instead of being a self-centered prick, as my lovely ex-wives used to say. And I was!! And I still am at times. Cause if you don’t care about your own ass, who will, God?  It’s like the guy who says, let’s see if there is a God, quits his job, stays home and doesn’t work. Keeps waiting for God to send him a check or food.  Somewhere in the Bible it says faith without works is dead. God does give us the right to choose.  The free will covenant.  Are you familiar? That’s why He’s fair. He gave us the right to choose.  I’ve also heard it said, if God is love, why do bad things happen in my life?  You know what I say to that?  Grow up and take some fucking responsibility for your actions.  I had too. Most people live their whole life without doing that, and blaming someone else for their actions. In fact, I was the worst one to do that at one time. If I’d only had money, been good looking, or what if my Dad hadn’t died?

My father died before I was three years old. He served in WW II.   Came home and died of a massive heart attack at age 43. My mom basically raised me by herself.  Why do I tell you this?  So maybe you will see, I didn’t have much, but Mom did the best she could with what she had to work with.  We didn’t have all this knowledge that we have now. The world is blessed, and all we do is complain, piss and moan, take pills for depression, everything is a disease, people are offended if you look at them, or you have ancestors who were white. Get the heck over it!  As the Eagles said.  And btw they said a helluva lot more.  You want a list??? I knew you would. Let’s see?? Hotel California, Take it Easy, One of these Nights, Ly’in Eyes, Desperado, Peaceful Easy Feeling. The list goes on for days. So why were the such huge stars?  Cause they were good? Maybe? But I want to throw down the gauntlet, right here and now!

I dare anyone to say anything bad about the Eagles. I never heard them do anything bad. Maybe Walsh, oh, he’s an alcoholic like me. Dang why couldn’t I have been an alcoholic who plays a guitar???

I asked you one thing? Do you think God in his infinite wisdom would give so much, and bless someone with such incredible talent if they were bad?

It’s time to question what is good and what is bad? Why? Because evil does exist. It says that in the Bible too.  Because I believe we are heading in a dangerous direction, everywhere in this country and world! I know we ARE and some of you do too. And personally I’m sick of it.  Oh, what can I do???? Be a man stand the fuck up, and say what you believe, grow a set of balls, say I BELIEVE THAT THIS IS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  When’s the last time you heard that? Ronald Reagan, JFK??? I know we will never agree on politics. But can you say these men were bad??

Don’t be a fucking pussy.  Cause one day and very soon you may need to have some GUTS!   And if you don’t have it in you do that, get the fuck out of the way. Cause if you ain’t the lead dog, the view never changes. And you are fucked anyway. If you don’t have the balls to say to your wife I am the leader of this family and I will make the final decision, then you are already dead.  Oh, I’m a sexist??? Nope, all women have the right to do whatever they want. They can work, vote, smoke, be a baby killer, be a whore, be a saint. I don’t really give a shit. I love all of you!  But guess what, they can’t hit Nolan Ryan’s fastball. And neither could I.  So when we have a woman that can hit a motherfucking curve ball as Teddy Ballgame said I’ll say you’re equal to us. Otherwise shut-up.  Oh, I want your opinion and most times you’re right and that pisses me off too. But it’s all good. Don’t you see?  We all have roles to play. I can’t be a woman, I couldn’t fix my daughter’s hair, and couldn’t tell her she needed to lose weight, my wife had to do that. Why? Because if I told my daughter that she would have been crushed. But women have a way of doing that. Oh, what you’re saying that’s all women are good for?  Don’t put words in my mouth, I was married to a brilliant woman.  We use to play trivial pursuit, and we never lost. Seriously, I knew sports and some leisure, and she knew everything else. No kidding!

All I’m saying is, let’s try to open our hearts and minds to new ideas. Cause if a tank ever pulls in your front yard, you may want a big strong guy like me around. Heeeheeee

And a bit of advice to the men. This does not mean you’re King and she is your servant.  Marriage is all about give and take, trust, respect, and changing, and being there for each other. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. I wish I could take credit for that but it’s in the Bible too. So if anyone tells you they love you, and you’re in a relationship?  And they are jealous?  See above. Cause I believe the Bible. That was a tough round. We will call it a draw for now.

But I will give you a bit of a sucker punch here. The show Mad Dog’s is about God too!!! Why, you ask? Remember the sign je-sus is everywhere? And what about the guy who gets knifed and dies? And has sex with the dead woman, and then goes and saves the woman they left in the woods, and then he walks out with his friends who went with him. You see, it’s about the battle between good and evil, we all fight every day. And most days we just let evil be.  Like a sissy. Don’t say a word. Why? Scared, or we might offfffffffffffeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnndddddddd someone.

Oh I know what you’re going to throw me next! A motherfucking curve. Go ahead.

I’m JUDGEMENTAL. The Bible says, judge that you be judged by the same judgement.

Matthew 7:1-3King James Version (KJV)

7 Judge not, that ye be not judged.

² For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

³ And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?

Okay I agree, but name someone who is not judge-mental about some trivial things. So don’t you get it, since we are all Gods, we have the right to judge. Because we all know basically right from wrong! And if you say, who are you to say what’s wrong, then I say your dead wrong. And YOU will have to answer for that. Because if you don’t know it’s wrong to kill another human being, if you treat your pet’s better than you treat human beings, if you believe you can ruin the earth with garbage and pollution, then I don’t want anything to do with you anyway!  Because it is my perfect right to have an opinion. Even if I’m a man. And if you say bad things against me I don’t care. But you better stay the fuck out of my face. You see, I’m not afraid, you can’t hurt me. Because I have no fear. Because I have faith. And I still love you!

Basically, I guess it’s my first amendment right to say and think anything. Even if I am wrong. That’s what made this country great! One of many! And slowly it is being pissed on and our very values are eroding.

And yes I believe in helping someone who is down or needs help. We were all created equal. But not the same and that is wonderful. What a boring world it would be. And I love learning new things, and being around different people, who make me think outside the box.

Because I believe if you stop learning, and growing. You might as well be six feet under.

But all this being said, what’s my point, no point, I just want somehow to help someone, somewhere, and I will pray I do.  Life is good today, and I know now it will be good every day until this body wears out and I rise again, as promised, and my soul is recycled again as an infant, because there is not a beginning or an end. Thank you for that Lord!

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
The love that’s all around me
And so the feeling grows
It’s written on the wind
It’s everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love you, I always will
My mind’s made up by the way that I feel
There’s no beginning, there’ll be no end
‘Cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I cannot get to thinking
Of all the things you said
You gave your promise to me and I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me in everything I do
You know I love you, I always will
My mind’s made up by the way that I feel
There’s no beginning, there’ll be no end
‘Cause on my love you can depend
I got to keep it moving
It’s written in the wind
Oh everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it show

Love is all Around Lyrics

Song Lyrics on Allspirit

Performed by Wet Wet Wet

written by Reg Presley

as featured in the soundtrack of Four Weddings And A Funeral

Still in doubt???? And you said you believe the Bible…

Ecclesiastes  1:4-11

A generation goes, and a generation comes,
but the earth remains forever.

There is no remembrance of former things,
nor will there be any remembrance
of later things yet to be among those who come after.

Roger G Hayes

 1/30/16

2am until 6:32am approximately.